German-word-sought of the day: the particular kind of sadism that makes a colleague flirt w/you (esp, in front of other colleagues), repeatedly, over many years, solely because they know it reliably makes you flap & squawk & just generally make an all-around ass of yourself.  Not nice.

I have got to quit complaining about my job. I am working on a deal with an A++++++ list star, one of my all time favorite actors. Lil perspective please. There was a time I would have died of happiness to be doing this kind of work.

Positivity moment slash Humble(?)brag: was inexplicably in a negotiation with a studio head today, a famously...jerky one, and when he singled me out for treatment befitting his reputation I pushed back once politely, ignored him when he persisted, and instead of being mad, genuinely both laughed at him in my mind for his pathetic failed attempt to psych me out AND felt sorry for him for being such a totally miserable bastard.

how do you say "headdesk" in French?

MON PATRON RATE TOUT A FAIT D'APERCEVOIR L'IRONIE DU FAIT QU'IL LUI A FALLU ME DEMANDER LES INFOS AVEC LESQUELLES ELLE VEUX SE MOQUER D'UN ADVERSAIRE POUR SON IGNORANCE DES REGLES ESSENTIELLES A NOTRE PROFESSION.

Command-performance pseudo-social encounter with PD today. Not only was it much less terrifying than expected, - it was kind of a letdown. Did make me even more certain I've made some very right decisions with my life.

People are always on about how "nice" I am, and my demurrals however vigorous are gainsaid or ignored. Now to shut everyone up once for all, here is some incontrovertible proof: (1) I get what is probably abnormally annoyed when people say to me "don't stress" or "don't worry about it" or, for some reason even more irritating, "don't even worry about it" (- much less...what? Am I running in circles shouting gobbledygook and menacing you with a cleaver?) (2) my annoyance is exponentially increased if the speaker is someone I...how to say...do not believe to have any legitimate claims to superiority / authority / right to stand in judgment of me. I have the right to be concerned, interested, etc. in things, and to express same, and don't appreciate being told, implicitly, that I'm an idiot.

I just discovered that a business "partner" went out of his way to disregard my explicit and clear direction, ignored my questioning of his probably-not-innocent-error, CHANGED the related documentation I provided, and then HID the fact of that change from me. I'm SURE it's a TOTAL COINCIDENCE that all of this happened to financially benefit his boss. I am NOT HAPPY.

appreciation moment for my colleague TC who is such a good citizen.

I love my job except for the industry's disproportionate involvement of assholes who insist on following me across the globe.

You know how sometimes you run into somebody at work and you start talking about something you recently experienced together and partway through they look confused and then you realize that the recalled experience was actually a very vivid dream that (apparently only) you had and there is just absolutely no recovery from it? I just did that. Hoping not to get called into HR.

It's too bad...I do believe he's a genuinely modest, good-natured and nice person, but because he is really really ridiculously good-looking, everything he does and says just comes off as faux-humble and smarmy. Everyone comes at him with their own expectations, can only see him through them, and it's obvious that he in turn doesn't understand the disconnect between his actions/intentions/words and what he's getting back. You see both sides get increasingly uncomfortable until one or the other awkwardly makes a break for it.

Big s*** goin down.

Without fail, I include typos in my emails to the big boss.

I almost never make typos in emails to anyone else.

I am again being entrusted with important math. This is a bad idea.

I pretty rarely think, let alone say, this kind of thing -- I can only think of one time I did it, and it was deployed for someone else's sake (mostly) -- but there *is* a point at which getting treated like shit by one's vast inferiors gets annoying.

I know one can suffer much worse things about a job, such as not having one. But I think I may be setting that bar too low.

I do this kind of math all the time, most recently to decide how to get home from the airport ("Is an hour of my time worth more than the corresponding ~$60 delta?" Turns out it wasn't, but this only led to depressing thoughts about how an hour of my time now is worth vastly less than it was in my first year of law school, even if not directly to me in the latter case, for dramatic purposes -- ie, deliberately not an apples-apples comparison -- but still). Morale is low and sinking around here.

If not basic decency, then at least self-interest -- given the possibilities that (1) you'll one day suddenly find that it'd strongly behoove you to kiss the ass of someone you once openly at-best patronized/dismissed and (2) they will not have forgotten it by then -- is a very good reason to behave well all the time.
In any case, I'm glad I'm more often under- than over-estimated. ("Better to underpromise & overdeliver...")

When you talk to an agent, you're never having the conversation you seem to be having.  There are usually at LEAST two undercurrents, and often neither is congruent with the actual words of the conversation or even each other.  eg, just now, beneath a sunny, friendly, joshy, giggly, verbal conversation, they were:
-- HOW DARE YOU EVEN BE SPEAKING TO ME AT *ALL* YOU WORM LET ALONE REFUSE TO GIVE ME WHAT I DEMAND DON'T YOU KNOW WHO I AM; and
-- MY GUYS DON'T HAVE ANYTHING GOING ON AND BECAUSE YOU WON'T GIVE ME WHAT I WANT THEY ARE GOING TO FIRE ME EITHER BECAUSE I COULDN'T GET THEIR DEAL DONE OR BECAUSE IT WASN'T FOR ENOUGH MONEY EITHER WAY YOU ARE GETTING MY ASS FIRED PLEASE DON'T GET ME FIRED.

"He has an air of superiority about him which is without merit."  - M, about irritating missive from J.  AMAZING.

Proving axiom that we're so often only 1 conversation away from peace.  Not always, but grateful that it was case in today's instance.  Fretting about tomorrow's, but tomorrow will care for itself.