I can update & reapply, to CA, SS's joke about working at M***. It's so like the ex about whom you can bravely think "clearly not for me- walk away", and be right, and mean it - as long as you're not in its presence... but when you are, its particular kinds of awesomeness and its blatant beauty dissolve your resolve and you really should get away before you do something stupid and you just are a mess until you do escape.